Coming Out to Friends Part I
Sitting in a hospital bed all day can get boring after a while. When I woke up the next morning, mom left a note saying she would be back in the afternoon and told me to be nice to the doctors. Yeah, I’ll be nice to them if they promise not to take out the morphine. I have to admit, that stuff was the only thing keeping me sane.
I’d been watching TV for three hours while every now and then my nurse would come in and check my vitals. Was a hot nurse too much to ask for? I mean, I know this isn’t TV or the movies but people always get hot nurses on there. Can’t Megan Fox walk in and check my vitals?
I was flipping through the channels and decided to keep it on G4. I might as well find out what’s good out while I’m bored to death.
I looked at my door to see my friends walking in. Hope and Jessie ran over to my bed to kiss all over my face.
“Argh! Stop! Lee and Mark will get the wrong idea” I protested, laughing when Hope slapped my good arm.
“We were trying to be friendly, perv. Only you were thinking about it in a dirty way” she addressed, crossing her arms.
Mark laughed as he pulled her into a hug. “How are you doing?” he asked, glancing at my wounds. “Bored. Do you think you could plug your console into the TV? I bet the staff would be okay with that” I requested, smiling at him.
“How are you gonna play with one hand?” Jessie asked, pointing to my arm. “I’ll find a way!” I exclaimed as Jessie stuck her tongue out at me.
I looked over at Lee as he stood in the corner. “Come here, Lee. I’m not gonna bite” I said, motioning him over to the bed.
He walked toward me and Jessie took his hand. I looked down at their interlocked fingers and back at Lee.
We were both having a mental conversation with our eyes and if we were talking, it would sound a lot like this:
Lee: I’m so sorry. Are you all right?
Me: I’m fine. What’s going on with Jessie?
Lee: You know I love her. Can’t you see that by now?
Me: And Rachel?
Lee broke eye contact with me and I frowned. “So, how long do you have to be here?” Hope asked, not noticing the tension between us.
“Uh…tomorrow around noon. I’ll be back to school hopefully next week. I know the club misses me” I replied, looking over at Lee once more.
He nodded. “Wouldn’t be the same with our VP” he replied, holding onto Jessie’s hand tighter. Mark noticed our interaction and I could tell he realized something was up. God, Jessie and Hope are dense.
“Hey Hope, can you go ask the nurse about hooking my X-Box 360 up for me?” Mark asked, smiling sweetly at her. Hope smiled back and nodded.
“Hang on Hope, I’ll go with you. Bye babe” Jessie said, pecking Lee on the lips before walking out the room behind Hope.
Mark stared at us sternly and sat down in one of the chairs around the room. “Ok, what the hell is going on?” he asked.
Lee sighed. “It’s nothing Mark. Things between Jessie and I are just…”
“Things with you and Jessie? This isn’t about you and Jessie. It’s about you and Rachel” I interrupted.
“Whoa! Who is Rachel?” Mark questioned, arching his eyebrows at Lee.
Lee glared at me but I just kept talking. “Apparently, Lee has feelings for Rachel, who happens to be our boss,” I replied, crossing my arms over my chest.
“You have feelings for her? Lee, what’s going on?” he added.
“We kissed! Jesus. I kissed her but it didn’t go anywhere past that, I swear. I'm just so used to Jessie and we’ve been together for four years. I don’t know! Rachel's new and exciting and I have fun when I'm around her. I guess, I just didn’t realize what I was getting myself into” he answered, running his hands through his hair.
“And you don’t have fun with Jessie? I remember when all you did was talk about Jessie!” Mark exclaimed.
“I know. But people have falling outs every day. Our relationship just got…”
“Boring? Just because it’s boring doesn’t mean you throw it away! Just because you’re not in love with this person anymore doesn’t mean it’s fair to just push them away and break their heart! Just because things aren't going well doesn’t mean you have any right to dictate over the relationship and say it’s over. No. Fuck that! It’s not over. It can’t be over!” I exploded.
Mark and Lee stared at me with wide eyes as I sighed and leaned my head back against the pillow.
“My mom said she’s not in love with my father anymore…and I’m afraid that they may be splitting up” I said softly.
Mark looked at the ground and Lee opened his mouth to speak but closed it before deciding to say something.
“Beck, I’m sorry to hear that and I’m sorry if you may think that I’m making the same decision as your mom. I love Jessie and I want to make things work with her. I’ll try my best to forget about Rachel. I swear I will. Just…please don’t tell her. I don’t know what I would do if I lost her. Please,” he begged.
We nodded as the door opened and Hope stepped through the threshold. “Mark, they said you could hook up the…what’s going on in here?” she asked, glancing around at us.
“Um nothing! Just having a quick chat. Nothing serious” Mark replied, brushing her off.
Jessie walked in behind her and stood next to Lee before looking in my direction. I knew what she was thinking and I decided to stop her before she jumped to conclusions.
“No! Jessie, Lee and I are just friends! We would never, I mean never, get together like that!” I proclaimed loudly. Lee blushed and nodded his head furiously before adding his own comment.
“Besides, Beck’s gay."