It has been several days since that night in the car with Kane. After work today, he decided that we could take a break from the researching and go city exploring. This city was not too big nor not too small. It had enough population for the streets to be busy during the day and night.
He took me to the night market near our office. The environment was lively with street music and plays. Many street stalls set up shops around the street.
Kane was dressed in a casual black V-neck t-shirt and blue denim jeans. He threw on a leather jacket to ward off the cold. Unlike me, I was dressed in light black dress pants and a white long sleeve blouse. I pinned my hair up into a bun with a silver hairpin.
We were passing the clothing stalls and neared the accessories when something caught my eyes. I walked over and gingerly touched the light red paper of the lantern that was hanging in a small stall by the corner of the street market. It was a dragon lantern.
A small smile played on my lips as I remembered Raiden’s dragon. I can feel Kane’s warmth seeping through the thin blouse I had on. He was standing behind me. He leaned forward so that his lips were by my ear. The music was loud and so for him to speak to me, he had to move in.
“Did you want to get that?” He asked.
I shook my head, “No. It reminded me of someone that’s all.”
“Who?” He asked.
“Raiden,” I replied honestly and dropped my hands from the lantern to turn and face him.
“I admit, I am a bit jealous.” He chuckled.
We started walking again. His shoulder brushed mine as we walked down the busy street. It was unintentional, but it still lit up my senses.
Ever since I have agreed to go on dates with Kane. I have been having crazy wet dreams again. It has me waking up in sweat and aching for more. In my dreams, it wasn’t Kane but Raiden. Touching me with his hands and kissing me all over. It pulled and broke my heart each time. It leaves me angry and happy all at once.
Being next to Kane—the feeling is unexplainable. It feels like I am with Raiden but not with Raiden. There were similar actions that I noticed that reminds me a lot of Raiden. Kane sometimes walks with his hands behind his back. There is a certain air of power around him but I assumed it is because he is a millionaire and is used to getting his way. Although the eye color is different, there was that masked expression on his face.
“Anna?” His voice pierced through my thoughts. I turned to focus my attention on him. “You were miles away.”
I gave him an apologetic smile, “Sorry, I was just thinking.”
“About?” He inquired.
“You always want to know what’s on my mind?” I questioned.
He chuckled softly, “Always.”
I glanced away and we stopped by a street performance. A group of young teens was dancing on the streets dressed in beautiful neon colors.
“If I am going to give away my secrets, I believe it is only fair if you do the same.” I cocked an eyebrow at him. It was the only way to get something out of him. Kane is secretive when he wants to be and a part of me wanted to know everything about him.
He chuckled and was about to speak up but it started raining. At first, it was light but within seconds it pounded heavily down. I should have known that it would rain. The air was damp and moist for the past few days. Immediately, Kane moved to shield me with his body. We ran to the nearest shelter which was a nearby shop. We hid underneath soffit of the shop.
My back was against the wall of the shop. I was completely drenched from top to bottom. I glanced down to see that my thin white blouse now clung to my body. Luckily, I was smart enough to wear a white spaghetti tank top underneath.
My body shivered, feeling suddenly cold. Kane’s eyes swept my body slowly before he took off his jacket and pulled it over my shoulders.
“Thank you,” I mumbled.
“It looks like we will be stuck here until the rain goes away.” He replied.
“It’s okay,” I reassured him. “A little rain is nothing.”
The rain came down harder and the wind blew by. Everyone around us is running in chaos away from the rain. A few people hid underneath the soffit with us. The soffit was so small that it did little in covering Kane’s back. It was drenched in the rain. I grabbed onto his shirt and pulled him forward.
His eyes widened as his body moved closer to mine. His arms wrapped around my waist. The heat of his body was welcomed against the cold and I found myself pulling him even closer. His arms were now wrapped around my waist and his body was pressed against mine.
Another harsh wind blew and we both moved closer to each other. His face in the crook of my neck while mine was close to his neck.
I sniffed again and I pulled back immediately so that I can look into his eyes. He looked down at me with heated, smoldering eyes and my heart started thumping rapidly against my ribcage. An ache developed between my legs. On impulse, my lips pouted slightly and his eyes dropped down to it.
I tugged on his shirt at his chest. His lips descended and met mine. At first, it was gentle, a small suckle of our lips before his tongue dived in and tangled with mine. It was like a dance in the rain. Finding an oasis in a dry desert. It deepened and I clung onto his body harder. My hands now bunching at his shirt to keep him there. He didn’t seem to mind.
Everything around us disappeared. It was only him and me. His scent filling my senses. I craved this scent. Raiden. He smelled like Raiden. One hand moved to the back of his neck and I urged him to deepen the kiss even more. My hands tugging at his hair for control but he wasn’t having any of it.
This kiss was filled with desperation and longing. It tugged at my heartstrings and consumed my body with need. A whimper left my lips and I sucked on his tongue slightly. He seemed to come to his senses sooner than I did because he pulled back immediately.
I inhaled sharply before my eyes opened and connected with his. People were so busy trying to get out of the rain that nobody paid any attention to us. Besides we were hidden in the darker part of the shop.
I moved my hands to cup his cheeks, searching for something. Something that will tell me that this was Raiden. It has to be. I can’t explain it but I can feel it in my guts that this man before me was Raiden.
“You...” My voice dropped.
“Anna,” He whispered.
“You are him, aren’t you?” I whispered.
His thick eyebrows were scrunched. His eyes were focused in on me but they revealed nothing.
“Who?” He replied and a surge of anger course through me. It frustrated me and I pushed his chest hard. He fell back and gave me enough room to turn and run. He made a move to grab a hold of me but I evaded his grasp.
“Anna,” He shouted after me but I didn’t care.
I ran through the many bodies that were still trying to run for shelter. I can hear him following me. Shouting for me to stop. I made a turn and turned into a small alleyway. I headed down the alley until I was well hidden from him. Slowly, I fell to the ground and curled my legs.
I ran away with his jacket still on me. His scent wrapped around me like a warm blanket. I’m confused and broken yet again. If he was indeed Raiden why was he hiding from me? If it wasn’t Raiden, why did he smell like him?
My old friend, pain, came scampering back. It wrapped its arms around me and filled me with pulsing pain. A surge of anger filled me and I wanted to go back out there and punch him but instead of doing that, I curled against the wall and pounded one fist against the brick building. Tears ran down my cheeks and blended with the rain. I closed my eyes and allowed the rain to soil my body. The coldness enfolded me and dug its way into my skin. I felt it to my bones and I started shivering.
I sat like that until the pain turned numb and the cold had sunk into my bones. Finally, I stood up in the rain and began walking out. Facing the world again. I looked ahead of me but everything seemed to blur by. By now, everybody has gone into their homes. The streets were empty and it was dark outside. The rain has calmed down a little bit.
When I emerged from the alley, I started walking in the direction of my apartment but after a block, I was stopped by the man I was running away from. I lifted my eyes to look at him. He stood before me, drenched from head to toe. He was breathing hard, probably from running.
“Where did you go?” He moved to grab a hold of my wrist and pulled me close.
“Let me go!” I struggled out of his embrace but he yanked me to his chest and wrapped his arms around me.
“Stop.” He demanded.
I pushed against his chest. It hurt to be so close yet so far. I squirmed in his embrace and managed to turn myself around but that only resulted in my back pressed against his front. His arms wrapped around my midsection. His head to the right side of my head. I felt his lips by my ear.
“Stop, struggling. No matter what you do. I will never let you go.” He whispered.
I stopped struggling and his arms loosened a little. My heart was lodged in my throat and I felt like it could break at any second. He held it in his hands and he could end my life with a simple denial that he wasn’t Raiden. Tears ran down my cheeks and my body shook.
“Please.” I don’t know what I was asking or why I was pleading.
“I’m going to let you go but you are going to follow me back to the car, okay?” He said.
I swallowed the lump in my throat and nodded. He released me but dropped his hands to my wrist just in case I decided to flee. In the rain, he guided us back to his car and opened the passenger side. After I got in, he headed to the driver side and started the car. Immediately blasting the heat on high.
At first, I thought he would take me to my apartment but I was surprised when he took another route, deeper into the city. We pulled up to a one car garage of a nice modernize condo. He put the car in park, shut off the ignition, and turned to look at me. The garage door closed behind us and the light flickered on. I can feel his eyes burning holes into my face.
“Look at me, Anna.” He ordered softly.
“Why did you bring me here?” I asked without looking at him.
He sighed and a hand through his hair in frustration.
“I just want us to talk. If I take you home, you will avoid me and that’s not what I want.” He answered.
He was right. I would run away because I’m scared. He smells like Raiden and everything in me wanted it to be real. That this man is Raiden but a large part of me was terrified. Terrified that if he wasn’t Raiden, the amount of pain I would feel.
I realized two things. One, if he was Raiden and didn’t tell me how easily I can forgive him. My love and need for this overcome my anger of him lying. Two, if it wasn’t Raiden, I don’t know if I will survive this one.
“Anna,” He whispered. “Look at me, love.”
I looked up then and he moved to cup my cheeks in his hands. They were warm and comforting. Calloused and rough but made my heart pound against my chest regardless.
“Who are you?” I whispered the one question that will either break me or heal me.