Chapter 16: Validation
The night with Matt being gone seemed to be the longest night in my entire life. I learned that jealousy is a hideous creature and although I of all people have no right to be jealous, that I am an extremely jealous person. I overthink most things including the possibility of Matt and Alexandra having sex all night long while Matt realizes that he made a huge mistake in being with me rather than his wife. The thoughts that crossed my mind kept me up all night long and although insecurity shouldn’t be a stranger of mine, any time he appeared in felt sick to my stomach.
With the trial being only a few days away, I could only imagine the stress that Matt was under. Apparently he and his attorney haven’t had much luck or any kind of break through with getting ahead of Alexandra in this custody battle. Apparently the stats showed more probability of the mothers winning custody of the children in court.
If Matt lost Thomas due to our relationship he would resent me. Of course it was his choice to be with me but never did he think that losing his son would come with this. I wouldn’t be able to live with myself if I knew that I was responsible for Matt losing Thomas.
By the time the afternoon had come I was sleepless but still awake. Matt texted me and said that he would be home in the early afternoon, I wanted to be awake and see how everything went with his family last night. I could only imagine how thrilled they were to not have me around.
I heard a knock on the door and I furrowed my eyebrows in confusion. Matt has a key, he wouldn’t be knocking at his own house. But I also wasn’t expecting anyone.
I stood from the couch and walked to the front door, unlocking it and pulling the door open. As I came face to face with Will I couldn’t help but seem surprised. I hadn’t seen will since Matt’s birthday which didn’t go too well. He probably hated me like the rest of his family did.
“Uh... Hi, hello...” I cleared my throat before stepping back from the doorway, “Matt isn’t home yet, but you can come in and wait for him. He should be here soon.”
Will seemed amused by my awkward greeting and he shook his head, “I know he isn’t, I came to see how you’re doing.”
As Will stepped into the house, I closed the door behind him and turned to face him, “Me? I’m fine.”
“Come on, Allison. A woman saying ′I’m fine′ obviously means that she isn’t fine,” He stated in a easy tone, seeming as though he were trying to lighten up the mood.
I managed a small smile. It was impossible to lie after that comment but I still wasn’t going to talk to Will about my relationship with Matt, that was personal and between Matt and I only.
“Would you like something to drink?” I offered, walking with him to the kitchen and opening the fridge door?, “We have orange juice, water, soda...”
“Water is fine.”
I grabbed a bottle of water and passed it to Will, I sat down on a chair at the island next from him, “If you’re here to tell me about last night, I don’t want to hear about it.”
I had come to the conclusion that the more I heard the harder it was to come to grips with everything. Even though I’m sure Will meant well by coming here, I didn’t want to hear about Matt’s evening playing house.
“You look exhausted,” Will suddenly said.
Running a hand over my face, I sighed softly and shrugged, “I didn’t sleep too well... And I’m kind of hungry. Do you want breakfast?”
I stood from the chair, wanting to keep myself busy and do anything but talk to Will about the problems that arised.
As I walked walked towards the counter Will began talking from his spot at the island, “I know you probably don’t want to talk about Matt with me, but I want you to know that I’m not like the rest of my family, Allison. You’re not to blame here...”
“Oh yeah? Then who is?” I asked, still not looking at Will. I reached up into the counter for a glass so I could pour myself some orange juice and as I looked up I began to feel light headed. I stepped back and buried my face in my hands, attempting to make the nauseating feeling go away.
“Allison? Are you okay?” Will appeared next to me, his hands on my shoulders for support as he leaned down to observe me, “You look miserable. When was the last time you ate?”
At Will’s question I tried to remember but I could exactly pin point a time when I ate last. I’ve been so stressed that the thought of food made me sick to my stomach. “I’m not sure... a day or so, maybe?”
“Damn it, Allison.” He scolded me and as I removed my hands away from my face everything around me was still spinning. “Allison?”
I heard Will’s voice in a distance but it was much more quiet and echoed that usual. The room spun and I could feel myself losing balance as my entire body became nothing but a burn and lightweight.
“Will?” I said softly, holding onto his arm for support, “I... I don’t feel so good...”
And just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse, my body fell forward and the world around me became black.
Hospitals are not a place I enjoy being, in fact, the terrify me. Bad things happen at hospitals. I don’t like being anywhere near one so the moment my eyes fluttered opened and I noticed I was laying in a hospital bed, it was fair to say that my day had been ruined. I was also extremely embarrassed by what happened, it didn’t take a genius to figure out that I had passed out in front of Will and it would all be blown out of proportion.
Everyone would think it was some plan for attention, but I didn’t want any attention at all, let alone this kind of attention. Of course the stress was due to everything that was going on with my relationship with Matt but I would rather handle that internally, not for everyone else to see or know.
I glanced towards Will who was standing across the room and looking at some brochures. If I could just convince him to not tell anyone about this...
“Hey,” I said softly.
Will looked up from the brochure and quickly tossed it on the chair as he walked over to my bed, “Hey. How are you feeling? Are you tired?”
I cracked a smile, “I’m fine... How long have we been here?”
He glanced towards the clock that was on the wall then back at me, “About an hour or so. The doctors have an IV giving you fluids and they should be back with further reports soon...”
I looked towards my arm and sure enough there was an IV hooked up to me, one thing I was happy to be knocked out for because needles are not fun.
Taking a deep breath, my gaze moved back to Will and I rubbed my other hand across my face, “And then I’ll be able to leave?”
“I hope so.”
“Good...” I nodded slowly and paused for a moment before clearing my throat, “Thank you for bringing me here, Will. I appreciate it.”
“Well, I had two options; let you fall flat on the floor and leave or catch you in my arms and save the day like the prince that I am,” He chuckled before tucking a piece of hair behind my ear, “You don’t need to thank me, Allison. I might not always be present, but I’m always here for you.”
“That really means a lot to me,” I nodded my head before looking down at my hands and playing with my fingers, “Look, Will... I’d really like it if you don’t tell anyone I’m here, including Matt. I don’t want any drama and you know it seems to follow me everywhere. I’ll be out of here hopefully within the hour and he won’t even know.”
Will ran his fingers through his hair, sighing heavily as he shook his head, “Allison, as much as I’d like to help you out, I can’t. And not because I mind lying to my brother but I already called him... He’ll be here any time now.”
“Oh god,” I leaned my head back against the wall and groaned, “This is--”
Before I could finish a doctor walked in and I stopped speaking in hopes that she was here to release me. I just wanted to go home, this really wasn’t a big deal so the sooner got home the sooner this would blow over.
“Ms. Prescott?” The doctor asked and I nodded my head in response, “I’m Dr. Rhodes. It seems that you were dehydrated. The tests we took show that the IV providing you with fluids have helped so after we go through a protocol and some suggestions on how to prevent this from happening again, you should be good to go home.”
I smiled at the doctor, “Thank you, I assure you it won’t happen again. I’ve just been so stressed that I haven’t been eating and drinking regularly. But going over suggestions really isn’t necessary.”
The doctor flipped through some pages on her clip board while she nodded her head, “It is protocol that we discuss this with you, Ms. Prescott. I know it seems like a waste of time but you need to be very cautious with your body and the amount of stress you’re under. Not just for you, but for the baby as well.”
I nodded my head at her words but suddenly froze, my entire body stiffening at her last comment. The room fell silent and I could hear the thudding of my heart in my ears. I must have heard her wrong, she didn’t just say...
“Baby?” I asked her, “What do you mean? I’m not... No, I can’t be pregnant. You must be looking at the wrong file.”
Dr. Rhodes seemed just as surprised as I was as her fingertips touched her lips, “Oh my... You didn’t know? I’m very sorry to tell you this way, I just assumed that since you’re beginning your nearing the end of your first trimester.”
I was still in shock, staring at Dr. Rhodes with wide eyes, “What does that even mean?”
“Your first trimester is the first 12 weeks of pregnancy, judging by our tests we’re guessing you’re around 10 weeks.” She explained to me.
“What kind of tests did you take on me while I was asleep?” I asked, beginning to panic. There was no way I was pregnant, I’ve been on birth control since before Matt and I were even together. I’ve never missed a day. Matt was already dealing with so much, the last thing he needed was me being pregnant. “No, no, no. I’m on birth control. Your tests have to be wrong.”
I didn’t even bother to see Will’s reaction, I was too focused on what was happening in front of me. Dr. Rhodes nodded again, “Birth control pills are not 100% guarantee that you won’t get pregnant. Perhaps I can set up a consult with our OBGYN for your other questions?”
I closed my eyes, shaking my head in disbelief, “No... Not right now. I just... I need to take this all in first.”
“Of course. We will be right back with your discharge papers,” She said before walking out of the room.
I kept my eyes closed, unable to come to terms with the idea that there was a child growing inside of me. A child that was unplanned but that I would never consider to be a mistake. I wasn’t ready for this and I was terrified to mention it to Matt, but no matter how unplanned a pregnancy is - a child is never a mistake.
“Congratulations,” I heard Will suddenly speak up and I opened my eyes to look at him, “I guess my brother is a sharp shooter. Even gets past contraceptives.”
I rolled my eyes slightly and shook my head, “He isn’t going to be happy to hear this. He has enough going on and I’m just going to make this worse for him.”
“Hey, don’t do that to yourself,” Will said to me as he stood up from the chair, “This baby is both of you, it’s a blessing. Whether it’s the right time or not, this is a beautiful thing.”
My lips curved upwards into a smile, feeling comfort at Will’s words. All I could hope was that Matt would think the same thing.
I rested my had on my flat stomach, it didn’t even feel like anything was in there let alone a baby. But Dr. Rhodes seemed certain that I was pregnant against all odds.
“You’re going to tell him, right?” Will asked me.
I looked over at him and furrowed my eyebrows, “Of course I am. I wouldn’t keep something like that from him. I want to do it in the right way, though. After the court date, so I have three days to figure out what I’m going to say.”
Though I had the time I wasn’t sure if I would be able to keep this huge secret from Matt for that long but he had to focus on the custody case before anything right now.
“Allison?” I heard a voice coming closer to the room and as I looked towards the doorway, Matt appeared a moment later seeming in a panic, “Babe, what’s going on? Are you okay?”
Matt rushed over to me and cupped my face in his hands as he leaned down towards me. I nodded my head quickly, “Yeah, I’m fine. I’m okay... I was just dehydrated.”
“Dehydrated? So you weren’t eating or drinking anything?” He questioned, as soon as the lips left his mouth he pressed a soft kiss on my lips, “What did the doctors say, snowflake?”
“It just... slipped my mind. It’s good that Will was there,” I pointed out. As Matt took my hand in his, I squeezed it gently and smiled at him, “The doctor is getting the release papers and then I can go home.”
“That’s great...” Matt paused, seeming to struggle with something but he finally turned to Will and gave him a slight nod, “Thank you for being here for Allison. I’m not sure why you were with her but I’m glad you were, to be there when all of this happened, it’s good that she wasn’t alone.”
Will gave Matt a nod in return, “No problem... I’ll leave you two now and we can catch up later.” Will’s eyes moved to me, “Take care, Allison.”
“Of course. Thank you, Will.” I smiled at Will, watching as he left my hospital room.
Ever since the day I had first met Will it seemed like we instantly had this connection, a friendship connection. Unlike the rest of Matt’s family Will actually seemed to care about me which was a relief, I needed that now more than ever. It was good to have friends that were close to Matt, and although Matt and Will aren’t on the best terms, they still are brothers.
Matt’s hand moved through my hair soothingly and he pressed his lips against my forehead, “When Will called me... Jesus, Allison, I swear to god I felt my heart stop. I didn’t know what was wrong at first and I automatically assumed the worst.”
“Hey, it’s okay...” I smiled softly at him as I intertwined our fingers together, “It was just a little dehydration. Nothing extreme although the way I felt before I passed out was terrible.”
“I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you. I should have been,” Matt apologized, I could see the regret in his eyes and I did the want him beating himself up over this. He had to go with his family, he can’t be beside me 24/7.
“You can’t always be there, Matt. I’m a big girl, I can’t be left alone I just need to take better care of myself,” I nodded a little and we both became quiet for a moment.
Ask him, Allison.
I wanted desperately to know about his night with Alexandra, the thoughts that had kept me up all night long and made me feel complete paranoia as well as misery. I needed the know how it went and more than anything I needed the reassurance that my mind was unable to give me. As of right now all my mind was doing was giving me more reasons to believe that Matt and Alexandra had been intimate.
It’s just paranoia, I continuously tell myself, but until I hear it directly from Matt’s mouth I probably wouldn’t believe it.
“How was your night?” I finally gained the courage to ask him, leaving the question short and simple, but hoping for a longer and more detailed response in return.
Matt shrugged his shoulders nonchalantly, “It was fine...”
“Yeah,” He countered, scratching the stubble on his chin, “It was great to see my grandmother and Thomas. Thomas was ecstatic to have me there for the night, and I love having the time with him.”
I needed to focus on the good over the bad. Matt got to spend time with Thomas which was a huge deal for him considering Alexandra had originally forbid it. That was until she had the opportunity to take advantage of Matt’s grandmother’s medical problems to have him over for an entire night.
“Was Alexandra... You know, appropriate?” I suddenly asked, not having prepared myself for asking him that.
He seemed just as surprised by my question as I was but he nodded his head, “Very appropriate. This was just go for my grandmother, Allison. Everyone knew that when getting involved, along with Alexandra. She was on good behavior... Nothing happened.”
I laughed softly at his words, finally getting some sense of comfort in his validation that Alexandra was on good behavior. I needed that more than he even knew.
“I’m sorry that you had rush here. I can only imagine what excuse you had to tell your family,” I apologized, feeling more like a burden than anything. I’ve never been like this in my life, I’ve always had a carefree attitude but now I always felt so damn weak.
Matt shook his head, “I didn’t tell them anything. I just left... You’re a priority, Allison. If you’re in the hospital I’m not sticking around some damn fake game to satisfy other people. It’s not worth it to me.”
“But your grandmother...” I spoke softly.
“I’ll have to explain things to her... But it’s better than lying and having to pretend to be happy with Alexandra,” He explained as his thumb brushed against the back of my hand, “I should have realized that before yesterday.”
“If that’s what you want.”
"You’re what I want. Just you, me, and Thomas...” Matt smiled at me as he stood from the chair, “My mind has been all over the place lately, dealing with the custody case and everything, but hopefully everything will be the way that it’s meant to be in a few days.”
“The judge will have to see how much you love Thomas. You’re an amazing father and anyone would be blind to not see that,” I told him.
I’ve always loved the way Matt adored Thomas so much. He’s incredible, and amazing father in every way. I know that he would be an amazing father to our baby too but he would have to wait until the time was right to find out and that would be after the trial.
Right now the last thing Matt needed was any distractions. He needed all of his focus on this custody case, but right after this was finished in three days I would tell him that I’m pregnant and we could handle this together. It would be a lot to take in but it wasn’t a secret that needed to be kept, I didn’t want Matt to keep secrets from me so the last thing I planned on doing was being a hypocrite and keeping a secret as big as this from him.
I could only hope that Matt would be happy about this baby and find some way to be excited, no matter how much of a surprise this is.