Complicated Feelings [BOOK ONE] ✔

By Chey All Rights Reserved ©

Drama / Other


“Love reduces the complexity of living.” - Anais Nin

| z e k e |

None of us can believe that Harriet is going back to Cheshire, and that she dumped Layne and abandoned her little sister. Clara and Layne are taking this the hardest of course, Lucy is cursing Harriet, and Nick is...somewhere. Me? I just feel numb, and I want to have my skin ripped open.

I walk into Clara’s bedroom and see her bathroom door shut. I go into her bathroom and see both Clara and Layne, their blood spotting the floor. Clara hands me a razor and I immediately cut my wrist. I sit on the floor and lean against the wall near Layne.

“Zeke,” Lucy sighs from the door.

“Sorry, Luce,” I say.

“Does this mean I can?”

“Clara, give her one.”

Clara gives Lucy a razor and she pushes her sleeve up. She slices her wrist open and sighs. She sits next to me and I realise that only Nick and Harriet haven’t resorted to cutting, that we are the only ones. Everyone realises it too and we share a look.

“We’re weak,” Lucy mutters.

“We’re strong, Luce,” Clara says, trying to give her friend a little hope.


“Only the strong do this.”

“Only the strong bottle it all up,” Layne adds. “The weak let it out instantly.”

“So, Nick is weak,” Lucy muses.

“No,” I say. “He’s just confused.”

“He has a family who wants him,” Clara mutters. “He should be the happiest of us all.”

“I’m not,” Nick sighs from the door. “I’m lost.”

“Everyone is,” Layne mutters. “We never expected this.”

“I never wanted this!” Clara cries. “I’ve lost everything!”

“We’re still here.”

“You can’t put your lives on hold for me.”

“You are our life. We need to look after you.”

“You don’t, Layne.”

“I do. You need us.”

“I don’t need anyone!” Clara growls.

“You might not need us, but we need you!” Layne yells.

Lucy and I share a look with Nick. We know that this will go on for a while and that it will get very loud. Lucy and I get up, and push Nick out of the room as we leave. I close the door and hear them yelling, followed by the sound of breaking glass.

| c l a r a |

“Stop acting like you don’t care!” Layne yells.

“Stop acting like you do!” I scream.

“I’m not acting!”

“Stop caring then!”

“I can’t!”

“Why not?!”

“I’m the one that found you!”

“So, you knew!”

“I was never told! I only saw you!”

I punch the mirror and it shatters.


“What?!” I cry. “Why do you even care?!”

“I care because I fell for you!”

I gape at him.

Layne pales. “Oh shit.”


“I shouldn’t have.”


“Clara, I am really sorry. I should have told you under better circumstances. Actually, I shouldn’t have even told you! Damn it, Layne! What were you th-”

I kiss him and he shuts up. He wraps his arms around my waist and pulls me closer to him. I smile against his lips and cup his face in my hands. Lou traces tongue along my bottom lip and I pull away, smirking at him.

“Shit,” Layne breathes.

“You just made my day,” I hum.

“You made mine.”

“Layne! Clara!” Lucy calls, the worry clear in her voice. “What broke?”

“I punched the mirror,” I tell her.


“You sound like Layne.”

“Hey!” Layne and Lucy protest.

“Hey! Make me deaf and you’re dead.”

“Sorry, love,” Layne murmurs.

“It’s okay, Boo,” I whisper.

Layne tenses.

“Harriet called you that.”



“It’s alright.”

I pull away from Layne. “No.”


“I just called you what my dumb ass sister did!”

“I don’t care.”

“I do! I brought it up!”


“What?!” I cry.

“Look at me,” Layne orders.

I face him. “Layne-”

He kisses me. “I don’t care, love.”


“I don’t care if you call me ‘Boo’ or whatever.”

“Why not?”

“It doesn’t change anything.”

“You’re wrong, Layne.”


“It changes us.”

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