Living with insecurities, shame and guilt can be the most self sabotaging thing a human can do themselves. The pain and heartache behind it can be very devastating but in the end you have to overcome it or you will end up dead. People kill themselves everyday behind emotional insecurity. Not that they actually pull a trigger, but the bitterness, anger and dissatisfaction about any and everything that goes on physically strains them and sometimes leads to such debilitating diseases such as cancer. How does a person gain that security? Sometimes others can help build it up, or sometimes you just have to build it up on your own. With the help of God anyone can overcome anything. It's been done since the beginning of time.
I notice most days the beauty of God's glory and everything in it, then there are those days when I wish God would take me home to glory. It's a lot of back and forth about what is going on in my life and how to handle it. One thing for certain, is that I need his help.