Chapter 20: Mommie!
I have been about two months since I bring that file. We were still looking for my father there had been no further contact.
I was worried, Luca had doubled up all the guards on me and our daughter, he put some on the boys but not as much on me and our daughter.
Wherever I went and felt like I had an army following me that was okay that was a prize I had to pay to keep my family safe I would do it.
Me and my daughter were out in the garden, we are picking it flowers to fill the bouquets around the cave.
It was one of our favorite things to do, I wash is our daughter ran back and forth picking roses and dropping them into baskets.
She always had to pick up the roses first and if I told everyone doing roses that day the look of sadness on her face made me change my mind.
“Hope, can you run these baskets inside and grab two more please?” I turned and asked my daughter.
“Of course, Mommie!” She grabbed both baskets and her little arms and took off running for the cave.
I turned back around and kept clipping away at the flowers humming a little tune that my Gran sing to me.
No today would be asked have to say goodbye to you so fast I’m so numb I can’t feel her anymore pray you just walk back to that door and tell me that I was only dreaming you’re not really gone as long as I believe. There will be another angel around the throne tonight love lives on inside of me and I will hold on tight. It’s not my place to question only God knows why, I’m just jealous of the Angels around the throne tonight.
You always made my troubles feel so small you are always there to catch me when I fall in a world when heroes come and go God just took the only one I know. So all hold you as close as I can longing for the day when I see your face again but until then.
God miss need another angel around the throne tonight your love lives on inside of me and I will hold on tight it’s not my place to question only God knows why I’m just jealous of the Angels around the throne tonight.
Singing hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah.
I’m just jealous of the Angels around the throne tonight.
She told me the song was by Donna Taggart and it was called Jealous of the Angels.
And made me cry every time I sing it, and reminded me of my mother and now my Gran.
But it also made me happy, because every time I sing it I got memories and they were good memories.
I looked around trying to figure out where Hope was, she was usually back by now. She would always try to sing the song with me.
But she wasn’t anywhere to be seen, “Hope!”
My guards immediately stand at attention, half of them stay with me the other half were in search of my daughter.
I was trying not to have a panic attack was getting harder and harder to breathe. You may think that I’m overreacting with everything that has gone on I don’t think I am.
I slowly sank to my knees trying to catch my breath I was gripping my chest trying to get air to go into my lungs.
“My Queen, the King is on his way. Hold on he’ll be here in a minute we’re looking for your daughter is breathe.” I didn’t know which one of the soldiers said this but his voice sounded familiar.
But I couldn’t pay much attention to it I was trying to breathe in figure out where my daughter was.
Before getting too much on it I felt warm hands pick me up off the floor and bring me into their chest.
“I need you to breathe, take deep breaths little mate.” I quickly attached myself to Luca, breathing in his scent trying to calm down my racing heart.
I could feel it my heart was slowing and I was able to breathe a little bit better.
“That’s it, keep breathing and mate.” I fell Luca’s hands went up and down my back pulling me in closer to him.
“Mommie! Mommie?!” I heard my little girls voice, it broke through everything. I quickly push myself away from Luca and turned around just in time to catch my daughter and wrap her up in the my arms.
“Mommie, why are you crying?” I felt her little hands brushed the tears off my cheeks. She may be 10 years old and she acted like she was seven but her body made her look like she was five.
She is just so small, thinking of it made me cry all the harder.
“Mommie, was just scared and worried about you punkin.” I felt Luca knelt down next to us and wrapped his arms around us both.
“I’m sorry, Mommie! I didn’t mean to scare you, I was just talking to grandpa! It won’t do it again I promise!” When her little voice reached my ears and I heard what she said I about died.
I pulled back quickly and looked into her eyes, there were so much like her father’s.
“Hope honey, what you mean you talk to grandpa? Where?” I felt Luca gets stiff next to me I know he wanted to know just as much as I did.
“When I was taking in the baskets, he stopped me and asked me if I had a grandpa. I told him I didn’t know what a grandpa was.” She took a deep breath before she continued. “He told me that it means that he was your daddy and that makes him a grandpa. Mommie, way tell me I had a grandpa?”
I took a shaky breath, “Honey, that man is not your grandpa. He is a very bad man, I don’t want you to go anywhere near him and if you ever see him again you need to tell someone okay?”
I was trying not to scare her but I needed her to know that this was important.
“Okay Mommie. I love you!” She jumped back into my arms. “Well you sing for me mama?”
“Let’s go inside and lay down and then I will sing to you. Run inside and get already.”
I watched as my daughter took off with all of the guards with her.
I quickly turned to Luca and held on to him tightly. “Luca…”
“Don’t worry mate the warriors are already on it. I don’t know how he got in but we will find out and we will find him. He will not ever get that close again. We’re safe I promise.” I felt him kiss the top of my head.
I held onto Luca as tight as I could. I don’t know how he could’ve gone this close without alarms going off but it absolutely terrified me if he could do this to what is stopping him from doing it again but this time taking my daughter or me or both of his back with him.
I think it was the worst feeling you could feel is a parent was hopelessness not knowing what or how to keep your cubs safe.
I was trying to slow my breathing down again and not have a panic attack, I would be no good to anybody if I had another panic attack.
Being in my mate’s arms help me realize that I didn’t have to worry so much what he said was true I knew he would not let anything happen to us I would never doubt him because if I doubt him it would be like me doubting myself.
I pulled away from Luca and grabbed his hand and started pulling him into our cavern through our balcony doors.
I needed some time alone with my husband and I think he could sense that as well.
We were all standing in the dining hall, we were having a pride meeting. Everybody needed to be aware of what was going on and what would be asked of them.
The cubs were in bed hours ago, I kept using my site to check on them to make sure everything was okay.
I knew they would be okay every time they were all sleeping in the boys’s room. They were cuddled around their sister making sure she was safe. They had two cards standing in the room one at their balcony doors and the other one at the entrance to the room.
The hallway that led up to the room was lined with guards but I can help it am a mother it’s my job to worry.
It was hard for me not seen anything but I knew it was my job support my husband and all the choices that he made as long as they were right for me and the cubs and our pride.
So I set aside listening to everything he had to say all the preparations that were going into keeping us safe and in getting our army ready for an attack.
I was slightly antsy about the battle that I knew was coming. To me it didn’t feel like the only one.
I felt like it was just beginning to something greater, I felt like my father was just a small part of something.
I discussed it with Luca but he told me not to worry about it all that matter was taking my father out, and I agree with him to appoint but if this was something that was leading into a greater battle that we need to be prepared for that as well.
We had been in this meeting for hours going over everything, it was after 2 AM I could tell everybody was tired.
So me being the mother and the figure that I am, I stood up quickly.
The whole room went to silence everybody was looking at me including Luca.
“It is after 2 AM I suggest we all retire and come back to this tomorrow night we only arrested to be on our toes for the coming war.” I watched as everybody but my mate quickly left the dining hall.
I could fill my mate’s eyes on me but I did my best to ignore them as I went to leave the dining hall as well.
“Little mate.” I stopped in my tracks, I felt him come up behind me.
“What was that about?” Luca whispered into my ear as he turned me around to face him.
“Luca, you can’t tell me that you didn’t see that everybody was tired. We need to be at our best were going to be able to win this war and that is not staying up to all hours of the night. Yes, we need a plan but we need to do with the smart way, and that is my job as your mate and your Queen to make sure you are doing what’s best for our pride.” I leaned up and brush my lips across his.
“I love you so much, that was the first time I’ve seen you act like the queen you are. I knew you had it in you all along I was just waiting for it to come out.” I felt Luca kiss the side of my neck right by his mark, it was beautiful.
Each of our marks on each other were our lion’s eyes, it was to make sure that we would always have our mate with this looking out for us.
I pulled back from Luca and grabbed his hand, “Let’s go to bed, it’s late.” I lead my mate out of the dining hall and into our cavern.
We quickly got ready for bed and laid underneath our covers holding onto each other as we let sleep overtake us.